Today as we traveled 650 miles .. We started out sluggish & tired – we were up all night with kitten & dogs – in the hotel – woke at 4:46 wide awake and took the time this morning , silence & a bit chilly , to spend with Jesus .
I was wide awake , not really able to fall back in to a deep slumber, I realized that today we would need to do school & accomplish 650 miles !
I ended up drifting off back to a light restful sleep , to awaken for a second time @ 7:00 am .. At this point I had that sensation of going around curves of a mountain. It came from the attacks of satan , blaming me for being late & for being a sluggard – asking myself how long !! How long would I lay there !! Proverbs 31 woman gets up before the sun , the accuser always attacks – he is relentless .. Same as when we go around the mountains and we can feel the gravity pull us across the Vechial, he does his best to pull us away from Gods road home.
As I put my feet on the floor of the hotel room , I prayed Lord let them not hurt – let them take me to you today , let them walk me in your light !
I asked God , Jesus please do not let me stumble or fail you today ! Let me show the girls love kindness forgiveness .. Teaching them how to read the roads so that as they will not make wrong turns .
I was thinking about sin , how sin is like gravel when were headed down the road and we pull over to see where we are , or maybe to read a map – it’s the same as our spiritual road , sometimes we just stop , ask Jesus where am I , where should I be , am I doing what’s right – before we even hear his voice talking to us & directing us we abruptly get up & head off .. Like a car getting back on the road from gravel shoulders & next thing you know they are sideways & headed a wrong direction –
I was asking The Lord , Jesus I’m tired of getting up fast & ending up the wrong direction over & over –
I asked him today Lord I need your direction , your zeal for this world , his light to guide me & his hands at the wheel !! I needed The Lord to show me how to not only stay on my road , but keep the girls on Gods road also !
As the day started a little slow we are being conscious of money , teaching the girls to not over order food & drinks things they would throw away !
So we sat & had oatmeal & toast & hot chocolates .. This seemed to be the perfect time for the morning gathering of scripture & thoughts ! It was the time to NOT reflect , but plan – for when on the roadtoheaven you can not look back and expect to see yourself going forward !!!
I wanted them to see TODAY ! I wanted them to focus on Gods will today & see where , what how , God will use them & learn to hand the steering wheel over even at their very tender ages .
We all loaded up & dug in to Homeschooling , which can take up to 8 hours . I never seem to mind the time it takes . You see I love being busy about Gods work . I love seeing children busy ” hands to work hearts to God ” school provides just this ! Even in the back seat if a truck , the girls hearts so tender are being molded to be like Jesus !
As they were learning the word , on so many occasions they seem to get sleepy , or even fall sleep ” gasp ” fall sleep while reading & studying the bible !!!
Awww at one time in my life I would have been crucified !! The mere thought could send me to my knees for forgiveness !!
I decided that leaving home , that stress has been really high , the girls leave behind 6 dogs , 8 chickens , goats , cattle , 20 horses & rabbit – yes it’s heart wrenching to say ” see ya in a few weeks ” however someway they always manage through the tears to say ” be back soon ”
So proud of these road worriers !
So I let them turn bible off & rest , talk & slumber – I felt again the guy wrenching pulls of ” I’m failing , I’m off the road , km a horrible person , I’m breaking the rules ” satan at work & yet I love structure & rules & organization …. Does God ???
Does he love for me to push them like a huge 18 wheeler behind our truck – pushing to go faster , or get out if the way !!!
I was not sure so I to needed to study Gods word to seek out more truth , to know in my heart Gods way is the only way !!!
As the girls woke , they were more rested & ready for school & all the other 7 subjects …
We managed to get done by 6:00 PM & kept on the road till 9:00 PM , where we pulled in to hotel .
Once again the pressures of the road & to NOT SIN !! Started – hurry showers bible bed – TV ? News updates , weather , what are road conditions ??
And the attacks of satan start all over again !
I stopped & explained , girls we must not let the world run us off the road ! We must stop — regroup & get right with God , check our spirits ! Are we serving are we headed in the correct direction!
I’ll close with all are tucked in bed sound to sleep …
Cowboy hubby & I prayed & are ready to hit the road hard again tomorrow with a 700 mile day !
We will again seek Gods will in our journey home , so that we maybe will be blessed with the ability to serve our father in heaven ….
Thank you Lord
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